Assalāmu ‘alaikum wa Rahmatullāh,
All praise and thanks are due to Allāh (SWT), who blessed us with the Glorious Qur’ān. Abundant salutations be upon our beloved teacher and role model, the first haafidh, Nabi Muhammad (SAW).
An ayah memorised by someone who struggled for months with it may be worth more to Allah than the whole Qur’an memorised with ease.
– Ustadh Nouman Ali Khan.
SubhanAllah, reading this quote brought tears streaming down my face. I tried to begin memorising my final juzz earlier today, with the hope that it would be easy, or at least much easier than before, but it wasn’t. My mentor said the last juzz goes really fast. I guess I’m an exception to the rule. I took a break after half a side and started procrastinating, until I came across this quote.
My mentor reminded me before, on one of the many occasions I complained about how I struggle, (astaghfirullah), that Allah loves you so much that He’s made it difficult for you. I was also reminded of part of ayah 110 of Surah Kahf, “So whoever hopes for the meeting with his Lord – let him do righteous work…” I ask myself, what do I want to meet my Lord with? With shame? With regrets? Or would I rather meet him with pride? With contentment that I did everything I could? With His words?
Allah chose me to memorise His words. He clearly sees something in me that I don’t see in myself. I’ve often wondered why He chose me, out of all people, when I have a terrible memory, poor time management and lack of self discipline, among other negative characteristics. It was something that plagued me for while until I found the answer on one of my absolute favourite blogs, Fajr Literary, which you have to check out if you haven’t already. It was actually on her facebook page: “Sometimes you are chosen for a difficult task because you have the right qualities, and sometimes you are chosen for a testing task precisely because you need to attain those qualities.” Subhanallah!
To my fellow hifdh students out there, don’t give up, no matter how hard it is and no matter how long it takes. What matters is the quality, not quantity, of Qur’an that you present Allah with.
Oh Allah, help us to memorise Your Book and make us of the people of the Qur’an! Ameen.